Tired!

More things to let go...

That includes the sense of loss...

It's a trying phase, and i'm tired...

Just feel like having a good long sleep, and i'll wake up feeling much better...

Let the world outside battle...

I'll join u once the fight's over...

Sigh.

Wisdom says again...

Dear Resignation,

I'm very amused because I could half-imagine you closing your eyes and covering your head to dodge the next boulder to come.

Hahaha...

Maybe you might 1st try opening your eyes and look UP!

What did you see?

Did you see the 15 vents that I see? Or see the sun half setting behind the mountain top?

Or did you see the 3 rocks that just went pass you?

Perhaps if you spend less time cringing, you would probably notice what I see.

I suggest you break the 15vents into 5 sizeable parts, so you can score small wins 1st.

Once you managed to hit your 1st breakthrough, you will start getting used to winning again.

I mean, what do you expect? The rocks at the summit are always more vulnerable than the ones at the bottom right? The rocks at the bottom will always have a larger base, and thus, stronger foundation. Of 'cos you gonna expect the rocks at the top to be shaky. Pardon me for being sarcastic, but you mean you actually didn't factor that in? Sigh...

Why are you ranting about the loose rocks? Like you ranting will make the rocks any firmer.

Ok? I think you've rested enough, and I've pointed out the 15 vents to you. Overcome the 1st part, then let's continue this conversation again.

Good luck!

With Love,
Wisdom Says

PS: Do remember to open your eyes and stop cringing! ; )

It's like...

It's like...

After creating so much amazing results that for a moment, it feels like you've reached another realm of your evolution.

Then Wham! Bam! Boom! Rocks came tumbling down and rolling at high speed after you.

It's like...

After dodging one stone, the next rock, and the next boulder, you feel like giving up, but you tell yourself not to. After all, you didn't climb so high up the mountain just to give up, right?

I dunno when the "giving up" conversation start to kick in... but when it did...

It's like...

An overwhelming sense of resignation, and the previous accomplishments were humbled by the multiple aches and bruises from the rocks.

I looked up at the mountain. It's just one more lap. But i'm resting now, wondering where to summon more inner strength to surmount this last lap.

No, i'm lying when I said i was slacking. I just didn't know how else to climb up. I'm worn out.

I bitched, ranted, complained about the rocks. I tried to attract attention that I can't move on any longer. But I guessed b'cos I climbed so high up already and left almost everyone behind, that few can understand how I'm feeling right now. Or maybe people are too busy climbing that they also feel like ranting themselves. I doubt they even heard me.

Who else can I turn to except inside me?

I feel so discouraged.

I really wanna finish off this last lap. But I'm damn scared to move from my current position. I dunno whether to move my right arm 1st or my left.

I'm so scared that I might fall and sabotaged whatever effort i've put in so far.

Of 'cos, I could always justify that even if I fall, I still have the experience of completing 3/4 of the climb, and no one can take that experience from me.

DUH! Like that is good enough for me. Why would I want to start climbing if I don't climb up to the top?

So how?

Left or right arm? Left or right leg?

Sigh.

LET'S DO IT!!!

I met him on wed for supper.

Mon he came for the preview.

Both of us registered as reviewer for the Nov's batch.

You know, karma has never been so interestingly into your face like now.

Like how 2 years later, you went through one full cycle, only to realize you are still at the starting point.

Perhaps the only difference is how both of us have evolved to the next level of our lives.

Anyway, we're ready to complete the cycle, and the karma.

Great, i'm definitely looking forward to that =)

Lately, with all the lives i've made a difference to over the past 1 month, made me feel like a changed person. Great!

On a separate note, I feel so darn sian at work today. Same old assignment.

Aiyo... need to faster complete it. Dun drag any more!!!

LET'S DO IT!!! BLITZ ARHHH....

The Sign

This is the 3rd time she appeared and called me from the back.

I may be reading too much into things... but I'd rather trust the signs...

I need to watch my back...

Hmm... what is it that I can put in place?