YEAR 2007

In year 2006, my theme was love, wisdom and courage. For year 2007, my theme was performance, effectiveness and results. Here's a summary of 2007 for me...

Accomplishments for 2007:

1) Managed an organization single-handedly for 2 1/2months, where I had to do accounts, managed 4 programs, ran errands (like settle bills and all), coached 3 clients, on top of managing my full time studies and 2 tuition kids. OMG! I can't believe I survived >_<

2) Did program management for Principles of Seduction * 2, Professional Coach Training Program I * 2, Professional Coach Training Program II, Freedom in Money, Basic Leadership Program * 2, Enterprise Operative, Deep Processing * 2... that's 11 programs in total! As a part-time staff, I assisted my org in bringing more than $140K revenue.

3) Was Preview Manager for Preview to The Courage to Create * 8, Power Memory Coaching Program, Preview to Basic Leadership Program * 3... that's 12 previews! Personal Enrollment ratio was 20% (lowest record) to 100% (highest record), with average of 46%.

4) Directly coached 10 clients. Got a good mix of business owners, financial planner, students, VP of local govt. org., real estate

5) Took The Courage to Create Program with sec sch close friend and brother

6) Paid/ subsidize my mum and brother to take Energy Experience Camp, where we openly express and acknowledge our love for each other. Since then, our relationships improved tremendously.

7) Conducted a mini coaching program for 3 O'level students. Taught 5 students this year.

8) Increased my allowance by 200%.

9) Did Course Supervisor for The Courage to Create Program * 2, Preview to the Courage to Create, and Making Courage Work

10) Had the most numbers of breakdowns in my life. The accomplishments was I survived thru all of them! hahaha =D

11) Gain my independence as a daughter! Whoopey!

12) Relationships with family improved

13) Was Course Supervisor Coach for a short time. I want to acknowledge my effort, time and energy for that. Actually, i want to acknowledge my courage too =P

14) Project Manager for coaching book (still in progress)

15) Spent the least amount of time in my studies this year as compared to my previous 4 years in university. But i maintained my grades. Actually, I improved my grades as compared to last year on the whole. Wow! (but dun ask me how I did that)

16)Softened a lot. Communication and interpersonal skills improved.

17) Still have the same close friends as last year. In fact, my social life expanded.

18) Took Basic Leadership Program, an intensive 9-month program. From 17, we're down to 12 participants, and I'm one of the survivors. Hahaha... sigh... dunno whether to laugh or cry... heh =P

19) Broke my personal record of longest hours of sleep. I managed to sleep 18 hours straight. That's an accomplishment. Try beating that.

20) Served my internship at NCS Hub.

21) Sign up for Violin class! Been wanting to do that for years, finally pursued my dreams.

22) I am 22 this year. Turning 23 years old in a few days time.

Shall blog a separate entry for resolutions for 2008. In a nutshell, 2007 has been the most productive year in my life. This week, I am giving myself a break. I deserved it. zzz...

The Dilemma

To laugh is to risk looking foolish
To cry is to risk looking sentimental
To relate is to risk being involved
To show your feelings is to risk being rejected
To make your dreams known is to risk ridicule
To love is to risk not being loved
To go forward against all odds, is to risk failure

But risks should be taken.
Because the greatest danger of all in Life is risking nothing.
Someone whom doesn't risk
Does nothing, has nothing, is nothing,

If you ask me what I came to do in this world,
I will answer you:

I came to remind you of who you ARE and what you can BE.

Games I give up

Today is PCTP 1 1st day.

Got another tick off by him again, and got chased out of the room.

I'm sick and tired of:
- my indifference
- giving my powers away to ppl.
- not having a stand for myself
- not even trying to explain myself
- attracting scoldings all the time
- saying the wrong things at the wrong time to the wrong person at the wrong place
- me telling myself to just accept the other person's comments
- playing the "being nice" game
- playing "miss diplomacy" game
- playing "stupid" game
- feeling so much unrealized potential
- getting f*ck all the time
- having lack of slp
- not having the drive to work on resource conversation
- not wanting to do anything
- my inconsistency
- giving up the fight
- wanting to make my mentors look good, therefore i dun bother to contradict them
- me not being highest self


I feel like having a gd rest.

After the gd rest, I shall fight.

To all these parts of me that sabotage me again and again from being a warrior of light,

I'm really sick and tired of all of you. You dun serve me at all.


You will die again to my highest self with wisdom.


New games to play:
- enough rest
- consistency
- corporate deals
- rainmaker
- smart
- being at the right place at the right time saying the right things to the right ppl
- standing up for myself
- accepting and honoring my powers and that i'm powerful
- warrior of light ==> fight lah!

Updates for November

Nov's coming to an end!

Here's an update on my happenings for this month!

1) I went for visions & clarity course; it's a once a week workshop. Supposedly, we have to do daily exercises to relax the eye muscles and strengthen the eye sight. Surprisingly, despite not keeping up to the daily exercises, my vision improved by 15%. Looking forward to the deeper processes.

2) I'm leading a preview for the 1st time, on 30 Nov, fri, and the theme is "The Courage to Create your Amazing life". Need to mock 60 hours for this preview >_< looking forward and dreading it at the same time. OMG!

3) I was the preview manager for 3 Basic leadership program(BLP) previews for Wave 6, and together with my wave 5 ppl, we managed to hit our targets 3 times! Hohoho! Got 24 leaders-in-training for wave 6 and their 1st weekend camp is coming up soon. Super duper exciting!!!

4) I'm beginning to stabilize more and take on more responsibilities in my workplace. Really love my work despite the challenges i face.

5) Have new breakthroughs with my brother. Felt his deep love for me and vice versa.

6) Caught up with old fren and he's coming down to my preview on fri. Looking forward to it!

7) Went for "A Millionaire Mindset" last sun at Expo that had 5000pax and got to network with the ppl there. The hunting, *cough* networking experience was qte interesting, and confronting at the same time.

8) Went for "Secret wealth strategies of millionaire" preview early Nov, and got some interesting insights of how ppl run their previews. =D

9) Attended Enterprise Operative workshop, and it was great! Learnt how to avoid burnt out and be an effective executive. Very useful skills indeed.

10) Went for preview leading trainings for 2 full days and it was very fun! The koan towards the end was my biggest takeaway. I love this koan. Perhaps i would blog an entry on my insights to human condition soon.

11) My coaching client managed to hit the results that she was supposed to achieve in 7 weeks, within 4weeks. So proud of her!

12) Finally cleared with SW after a long long time. Phew!

13) Fell sick. Down with cough, flu and fever. Stressed out sia... with preview leading coming up. I am so confronted. But excited too.

14) Got myself 2 new job lobangs that allow me to manage the corporates. This is definitely gonna be a real stretch for me. Super duper confronting but looking forward to playing this corporate game. I want to be a rainmaker! =)


Peep into December:

1) Project management for an e-book, FAQs on Coaching. Imagine you co-authoring a book together with 11 other friends. It's gonna be a WOW experience.

2) I'll be managing Professional Coach Training Program, Enterprise Operatives and Jan's The Courage to Create Programs.

3) Going for a well-deserved sponsored trip to Phuket/ Bali for 1 week

4) Visiting grandfather in m'sia

5) Celebrating my 23rd B'day!

6) Attending a presentation workshop

7) Catching up with close friends!!!

8) Attending X'mas party!

9) SLEEP. REST. SLACK. RUN MORE EFFECTIVELY & FASTER!

10) Spend lotsa quality time with family


If you would like to have the Courage to Create Your Amazing Life, come down for 30th November preview. Reserve your seat today. I've got 2 more tickets. ; )

Updates for October

Events in October:
1) Attended Basic leadership program (BLP) 2nd weekend camp on 1st week of oct (3 full days).

2) 2nd week of oct I took up Course Supervisor role for The Courage to Create (TCC) program (3 full days, excluding logistic setup, creation meeting for assisting team and training for Team leader)

3) 3rd week of Oct I assisted in an advance program called, Principles of Seduction, for 4 days.

4) I took up 2 coachees for this cycle of Making Courage Work (MCW) program.

5) Tutee's taking her O'level. This month i've been focusing in her revision.


My space lately:
1) Very worn out and stretched. though i'm still progressing, my actions were sluggish

2) Been extremely "off" lately; was in my super BLUR mode and a handful of hiccups. That happened when I lacked slp =(

3) Psychologically more stable and stronger. I've finally picked myself up and committed to running faster and more efficiently in the 4 projects than the 1st 4 1/2 months in BLP. I want growth and expansion in performance, effectiveness and results for the 4 projects. For project 2 and 3, which is relationships and finance/work/studies, I intend for a total of at least 300% increase in growth.

4) Became very aware of my blind-spots and areas in my life that I need to hone. sigh, suddenly realized I've got so many things I need to work on. Esp to overcome my complacency and laziness. This quote is very apt, "When complacency breeds, danger multiples".

5) What I got out of TCC assisting as a Course Supervisor is - "Walk the Talk". As a leader/ coach, if you cannot walk the talk and pull off results in your life, there's no way you can inspire and create magic in your coachees' lives.

6) What I got out of POS as an assistant is to locate the source of all my issues for the last 4 1/2 months, and about "owning the space". When you own the space, you step into the room feeling stronger sense of ownership and power.


October's coming to an end! Hoorey! =) Looking forward to November where more Exciting events await me -

1) Farewell party (gonna meet new ppl!)

2) Visions and Clarity (a processing that improves short-sightedness)

3) BLP wave 6 (I can start recruiting the next batch of leaders)

4) Enterprise Operatives (where I learn how to operate in enterprises)

5) A visit to salon!

6) Preview leader mock trainings (wan2 be trained to lead previews and programs)

7) Quality rest (I need this!)

All in due time! =)

Make it or Breakit

It had been a really confronting and long night for me. It was either a "make it" or "break it" as I tried to answer why I should still hold on.

Qns: Why are you still in this BLP?

Ans:

1. B'cos I've only just began my BLP, instead of wave 5's BLP.

2. To find the magic within me again

3. To leave a magical touch wherever I go, in whatever I do.

4. I've yet to be the leader i strive to be - humble and inspirational.

5. To sustain joy in admist of all the hardship.

6. To serve the world.

7. B'cos I made a conscious choice every single moment.


I acknowledge myself for not giving up the fight. Thank you for willing to give yourself a second chance.


PS: BLP stands for basic leadership program.

The Cub on her rollercoaster ride

It's been a long time since I called myself a cub.

Been a jaguar for too long since early this year. realized i'm most myself as a cub, the fearless and insignificant cub. that's where my true powers lie, acknowledging and accepting my own insignificance and stop trying to be someone BIGGER than who I really am.

Acknowledging my fears, weaknesses and insignificance allows me to free up alot of energy, allows me to accept myself for who i am and am not, allows me to accept others for who they are and see them for what it is, allows me to focus on walking the path of inspiration and humility, be clarity and wisdom, be courage and love.

I love myself most this week.

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The Rollercoaster ride this week:

sometimes I am confused
sometimes I am clarity
sometimes I am blur
sometimes I am wisdom
sometimes I am lazy
sometimes I am efficiency
sometimes I am a coachee
sometimes I am the coach
sometimes I am powerless
sometimes I am powerful
sometimes I am tired
sometimes I am energy
sometimes I am my worst enemy
sometimes I am my highest self
sometimes I am procrastination
sometimes I am NOW
sometimes I am limitations
sometimes I am MAKE IT HAPPEN
sometimes I am bitch
sometimes I am GET OVER IT

sometimes I shift gears so fast, I forgot who's the driver.
sometimes I am the driver in control of my gears.

sometimes I am all of these
sometimes I am none at all

but........ always cute. =P

back to chop wood carry water climb hill again.

Reformat.

Advanced level.

Start.

What's cool this week?

1. I cut my hair!

2. I'm gonna make contact lenses. Yes, finally. =P

3. My cool guy asked me out for a movie!

4. I found a formula that allows me to snap myself out of a breakdown cycle faster n more efficiently.

5. My bro's taking Power Memory Coaching Program

6. I tried 2 new things in my wave meetings.

7. Gonna catch up with my close friend this week. Haven't done that like ages.

Really cool! =)

Conversations that I ran my life with lately

It's been a while since I last blogged. Too many things happened. Life's been really fast-paced. Here's some of the conversations that I've run my life with lately:

1) Who should I be? Which me should I be?

2) It's time for system upgrade.

3) I want to destroy my life. Please let me kill myself (ego).

4) The only master I serve is myself.

5) And I serve the world.

6) Yixin the leader is an elitist. Yixin the coach is compassionate. Why do I always draw the line so clearly? Hmph...

7) What're my strengths and weaknesses as a leader?

8) How can I be more graceful in my delivery?

9) How can I be more empowering than overpowering as a leader?

10) How can I grow as a leader?

11) How can I score more reality points?

12) How can I sustain my joy despite all the breakdowns?

13) How can I increase standards? How should I devise the training guide? How should I champion the growth of others in the manner they can learn best in?

14) How can I add value to others?

15) What support do the rest need most at this point?

16) How can I catch myself faster each time I got unconscious and overwhelmed by responsibilities?

17) How can I stop bearing the world's burden on my shoulders?

18) How can I meet up to my dad's expectations? How can I make him happier? How to improve our relationship like my mum's and bro's?

19) How can I be more attractive? How can I attract the people/things I want very easily?

20) How to tell ppl. to stop looking up to me and start believing more in their powers?

21) Why do I always reject that I am powerful? How can I accept my power?

22) How to be soft and powerful and graceful and attractive all at once? Hmph...

23) Why am I always asking so many questions?

24) How can I be a rainmaker?

25) How can I sustain the moment when I'm align as ONE with myself and the Universe always?

26) How can I win myself?

27) How can I sustain unconditional love and acceptance all the time?

28) How can I fork out more time to catch up with my sisters and close frens?

29) Why can't I just be small and weak? Why do ppl. always expect me to be powerful or push me in a position where I have to be powerful?

30) How may I exceed targets all the time?

31) How can I get all the answers to my questions?



Yup, my life is FOS at the moment. Realized that my old system really doesn't serve me well. And there's a part of me that wants to destroy my life (system)when all the vulnerabilities of my OS have been exposed. Ouch!

It's time for system upgrade. My tagline used to be "Make it Happen!"

Now, my tagline is, "Get over it." =)

A reminder

This blog entry is to remind myself...

that i love my father.

that my father loves me too.

that everything i learnt out there is to better our relationship.

that today is the day i apply what i have learnt.

no matter what happens, be fully responsible for my actions and their consequences.

Survey

Found this on my er mei's blog. It's been a long time since i did one, so here goes:

1) Have you had your birthday yet?
Not yet for this year. It's end of the year. ; )

2) Are you still the same person as you last year?
Yes and no. Yes as in i'm still as petitie as last year, only cuter this year. *so not shy* =P

3) Are you still in the same job?
Of 'cos! Though for my internship, it's coming to an end this friday.

4) Is your favourite colour the same colour?
I dun have a fave colour, my philosophy for colours is that it depends on the objects n my mood. Though my bro. will claim otherwise. He thinks that I always pick red and black, color of ECI. >_< 5) Have you got the same style/colour hair?
Nope! I've got a new hair cut on mon, and dye-ing my hair soon! Hohoho!

6) Have you brought a new car this year?
Nope! I wan2 be driven around. Heh =P

7) How many Ex girlfriends/boyfriends have you had this year?
2. No ex-gfs yet.

8) Have you been involved with the police this year?
Yup, got chased out of The Tanamera. Sigh... need to find an office space asap.

9) All time drinking place for 2007?
It's the company that matters. I'd go for pubs along clarke quay/ boat quay.

10) Is your best friend still your bestfriend?
Yes. But I forgot to tell her she still is. Shall make a point to remind her on her b'day.

11) Got any tattoos or piercings this year?
Nope, but i did eyebrow embroidery! I'm super proud of myself for the courage, 'cos I did mine without researching wad the heck is eyebrow embroidery nor knew whether it'll turn out nice.
Keeping your intention strong that you're gonna have beautiful eyebrow helps. What you intend will manifest in your reality ; )

12) Had a hair cut?
Yea yea... i told my hair stylish to give me a different style this time. I was hoping for smt. more punk/funky/fun/stylish BUT I said I'll leave it to him to style. Turns out to be still so demure-looking. >_<

13) Waxed any part of your body this year?
Haven't tried yet. Would be great to try it sometime soon. Must find kakis so we can scream together! Hahaha... *so evil* =P

14) Been in hospital this year?
Nope!

15) Lost someone you cared about this year?
Yup, lost a friendship. Sigh... wish he'll understand my intentions and amend our friendship when he's straightened his thoughts. =(

16) Been on a holiday this year?
Not yet!!! Though i've been on holiday mood several times this year. I wan2 go on a trip soon, in dec! Wan2 join me? Hee~

17) Been in love this year?
What is love? Alrighty, to ans it in a non-philosophical manner...
The ans is yes and no. It depends on the context. Alright, I get it, i'm still being philosophical... =P

18) Been kicked out of a Club this year?
Thankfully no.

19) Read a book this year?
You got to be kidding, of 'cos! Since 2 months ago, I've read Ender's game, The Manual of the Warrior of Light, Atlas Shrugged and Harry Potter latest book!
Harry Potter's the BEST! You gotta READ it man! The BEST of J.K.Rowling series, says me.

20) Worst thing happened this year?
Overwhelmed with too much work. Breakdowns are getting pretty normal these days... =(

21) Best thing that happened this year?
Alot leh... lemme count the blessings...
(a) Ah ming, Brother, and myself taking TCC together.
(b) Brother acknowledging my love for him
(c) Breakthroughs in my performance
(d) Taking BLP with a bunch of great ppl.
(e) Me finally fulfilling my violin dream
(f) Having more money to spend
(g) Realizations I have had so far, esp. the leadership conversation of being humble n inspirational
(h) Having a clear sense of direction for my career, n making a commitment to myself
(i) Trying out alot of things for the 1st time, and learning lots from others
(j) ... ... ...

22) Best thing to happen this year?
Too much to list here. I've created a wish list already. Just to summarize all in one word -
LOVE.

Got time to complain, got time to do work

I'm really tired. And I have to manage a preview in 2 days time.

No, actually i need to manage the preview now.

Things are not going our way. The resistance is growing stronger.

I need to pull myself up in the shortest time possible.

FIM is this weekend. I still need 4 more pax before I hit my target.

I need to pull myself up in the shortest time possible.

*sigh*

There're always things to be done, and battles to fight.

*sigh*

A mysterious voice: (Got time to complain, got time to do work)

>_<

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Q : What are you truly afraid of?

A: I'm afraid of having fears. 'cos it means I have to channel my energy into locating the source of the fears to regain my clarity and resolving the fear itself, instead of spending the energy doing work.

My 1st time

A lot of "new stuffs" in my life last week:

1) Bought new facial products

2) Went for eyebrow embroidery for the 1st time

3) Bought a new t-shirt, which is really cool n chic-looking

4) Gave my bro. a movie treat for the 1st time

5) Clocked OT for the 1st time for my Internship (I finally felt like a true intern! it's like you're never an intern until you worked OT.)

6) Received Harry Potter's latest book on sat (special delivery at 10am!)

7) Went for violin class for the 1st time

8) Tried durian with Nutella for the 1st time

9) Bought a new bag!

10) Annouced to the wave that I'm the new Operations Manager (OM) for preview management.


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Monday blues...


I am so tired... I just wan2 sleep...

zzz

Recent Realizations

Recently, I've been through qte a few breakdowns. And these are my recent realizations out of those events.

1) Isn't it amazing that sometimes you were mulling over an issue, and you attracted someone into your life and she said something out of the blue that seems like a solution to your issue? I got one such experience during the weekend energy camp.

2) My bro. finally received and acknowledged my love for him. =)

3) I finally realized why I was so tired lately. Been carrying too much conversation within me and those conversations sapped my energy away. I was not vigilant enough. Get over it.

4) I used to wonder why others have such a high expectations on me. I used to hate that. But now I realized it's b'cos I always demand the best of myself, and they're merely reacting to the vibes I sent out. Morale of the story- There's really nothing to complain about. I ask for it.

5) As a coach, having clarity is very important. During those times when I'm stuck, learn to trust others to either give me listening space to regain my clarity, or trust another coach to coach me out of my issue. And yes, even coaches have times when they got stuck. In those occasions, you need to gain your clarity back. So request for support!

6) Learn to let go. If you're too attached to certain responsibility, you're depriving others the opportunity to learn and grow. Similarly, you're depriving yourself the opportunity to learn a different method from them. It may be true that your method is more effective. But because you allowed yourself to learn from others, you may notice a creative method of doing the same task.

7) By not acknowledging you and taking you for granted, others have embedded their acknowledgments for you. It's b'cos you've done such a great job that others have learnt to take you for granted. The question is- do you have the heart and eyes to receive and recognize an acknowledgement?

8) It is those whom have yet to accept themselves as beautiful that would go, "Really meh?" or , "You sure?" whenever someone gives them a compliment. Have you accepted yourself that you're beautiful and pretty?

9) There's no need to rush or push things. Everything has its own timing. Just be inspiration and your intentions will manifest in your life.

10) There're 2 powerful forces in the world. One is positive and the other is negative. One has the ability to create and the other, to destruct. Let your conversations be those that create and inspire others.

11) What is it like to do things with one heart? No more inner conflicts nor contradicting yourself. No more "I want, but...", or "I dun really know if I want it that badly enough". Life becomes a "You say you want it, and you get it." Yea, be ONEHEART.

12) What is it like to love someone and chat with him with no "conversations racing through your mind" and "expectations"?
The answer is enjoyment.

13) If you want something, open your mouth and ask.
And remember to ask at the right time.

14) Sometimes you wore too many masks that the masks become who you are and you got confused. Always remember- everything's just a role and a game.
Who are you? Who's the default me?
Just recall the feeling when everything seems to align as ONE. No conversations. No expectations. No conflicts. The space where every part of you resonates as ONE.

15) Learn to self-heal. When the body is aching or feeling not in equilibrium, ask this question, "What is my body trying to tell me?" And listen to your heart.

16) 16 is the number of participants whom will be taking 4-6 August 2007, Freedom In Money (FIM). Let's Make It Happen!

17) 17 is the name of my Basic Leadership Program (BLP) wave. Each of us, including the one whom left, has a purpose to fulfill in this BLP. Have you found yours?

18) My performance pattern come in spikes. One moment I am super high, the next moment I'd be down with depression. The question is- How fast can I pick myself up for the next High? What preventive measures can I set for myself during my lows? What support do I need to get back on my feet asap?

19) What can you acknowledge yourself for?

20) The age I took The Courage to Create.

21) What would Inspiration and Wisdom say at this point?

22) Everyone is a reflection of me, and an opportunity for me to accept and honor other parts of myself that I've yet to do so.

Confessions

Conversations off my mind:

1) i'm so, so in love with you... (singing the song, so in love)

2) Sometimes I doubt if it's worth waiting for you at all 'cos you never gave any commitment of any sort. But i'll still wait anyway, 'cos I want to. =)

3) I want to say I mind alot when you ask your friend along on our date. But I'm too proud to tell you that.

4) I also want to say i actually regard you more than just a friend. But you're also the last person i'll admit to. And I wish you feel the same way about me too. Only difference is that I want to know. =P

5) Stupid ego is talking very loudly.

6) Who is John Galt? I wish i can jumped straight to page 500 of Atlas Shrugged. In fact, make that the last page.

7) I'm looking forward to our wed's date.'

8) I want to achieve OUR GOAL for coming TCC preview next thurs. In fact, make that all previews.

9) The words, "strong", "serious", "hard", "inflexible"... still trigger me alot. Darn.

10) I wish i can get a new desktop. But i'm just so unwilling to pay.

11) I want to have a holiday trip in dec., but i also not willing to spend the money.

12) I'm also not willing to take midnight cabs anymore.

13) I've got alot of work to do now in my internship. I ask for it.

14) I'm proud of working at ECI.

15) Can someone be both sophisticated and cute/innocent-looking at the same time?

16) I want to sleep.

17) It's knock off time. Bye! Hohoho... time to meet dz n dianna at Timber.

My weekend fun

My weekend was fabulous. It's been a while since I've got some fun injected into my life.

Sat
I spent time with family in the morning. Tuition in the afternoon got postponed so I spent my entire afternoon catching up on my slp... woke up to have dinner (that dad & bro bought for me 'cos they could tell how tired I was) and then head back to slp again. OMG! I miss those days when I just sleep whole day and slacking. I mean, when's the last time I actually slacked and felt good slacking?

At night, I head over tanah merah to help Lin and Teng in the packing. We're moving ECI office! Hoorey! Brand new start for the organization expansion!

The 3 ladies caught Transformers at midnight. It was the 1st time I caught a midnight show and I was quite amused to see such a crowd! According to both the ladies, Transformers is a freaking good movie. For me, I love those convertibles.

After that, dave and his fren, Kit, joined us for supper. We chatted through the night b4 heading back office again for further packing till 6am, sun morning.


Sun
Met up with Simin and Eileen at orchard. 'tis the 1st time we hang out and it was fun!!! i bought my violin finally!!! Hoorey, I can finally fulfill my violin dream. The 3 gals shopped a little, crapped alot and we caught Nancy Drew!!! OMG! i love this movie! The guy's so CUTE! and Nancy Drew's pretty too =P I brought the gals to "The Better Toy Place" at Taka, 'cos I knew they'd love it. True enough, we had fun at that place! Nice.

Pity I had to part with them to join my sisters for yan's b'day celebration. I was late (what's new?). When I arrived at Indonesian Riverside Restaurant, a BIG FISH-HEAD with a flower on its lips welcomed my arrival. >_< The things my sisters do. Aiyo...

After dinner, we head over to tcc to chill. There were 5 gals and 2 guys. And the poor guys had to sit through our gals' gossips through the night, deprived of attention, as the gals gossiped about our romantic lives and boys and guys and relationships and match-making and guys and boys and romantic lives and again and again.

Hhahahaha.... I miss such brainless gossiping about guys. Really had so fun last night. Miss my sisters alot. *muacks*


July has been a great start for me. Intend that it ends with a high note too =)

Musing

Dreams

It's really weird to realize how my dreams drop hints of my future. It's like one day out of the blue I did something and an old dream began to make sense. In fact, on a separate day, I said smt to someone, and I suddenly had the key to access another part of that same dream. Suddenly, eveything just fits.

How about having another dream that teaches you a lesson? I unintentionally dumped shit on a friend last night. In my dream, someone else dumped the same shit on me and I was the victim. I woke up feeling the what-the-heck-just-happened-to-me emotions.

My only feedback to my dream-maker is that next time it'll be so much better to let me dream the dates and times of the events, especially anything to do with striking the lottery.

Love

A friend asked, "Where can you find most amount of love?"

I replied, "Within me."

It is the love from within that allows me to view the world with loving eyes, to perceive, receive and give love because I can recognize when I see it.

Professional Coach Training Program 1

I took it over the 24-25June weekend. One of the issues I used as part of a coaching exercise was to earn my desired salary when I graduate next year. The objective of the coaching exercise is to arrive at a desired outcome within 15mins of the conversation.

My coach-partner: Your boss is the master coach. How come you never ask him to coach you?

Coachee (Me): ... ... ...

I dunno which one tickles me more -

That my coach-partner got bored towards 5 mins of the conversation and invite me to receive coaching from my boss directly...

or That it never dawned on me before to request coaching from my boss/mentor directly.

OMG! >_<

Overcoming Fear

It's strange how one attracts the same lessons until he/she learns the meaning of the lessons and transcend beyond the lessons themselves.

I tried so hard to avoid learning how to do up sophisticated charts using excel. (Yes, i did an excel module before and i actually survived through without doing any charts. It's called principles of seduction.) I got the I-am-so-not-good-with-technical stuffs, and doing anything related to charts thingy tend to leave me incapicitated. In fact, I survived 4 years of university life without doing any of those charts at all, despite majoring in ISM and mktg.

I just had a i-had-it-coming kinda feeling the moment I had a new supervisor in my internship company. True enough, the 1st assignment she gave me was something to do with excel, and generating those "chim chim" charts.

I learnt how to manipulate those charts today to my favor. Can anyone imagine that? OMG!

Again, i dunno which one tickles me more -

That I am amused at myself for not knowing how to do a simple thing like charts, or that i'm amused at myself for being so happy picking up the skill.

hahaha.......... =p

Interesting Quotes

To my coachees, and a self-reminder:

- Sometimes when you say "yes" to others, you're saying "no" to yourself.

- The warrior of light sometimes wonder, "why did i labor for so long over a battle that could have been resolved with only half the energy i spent on it?"
The truth is that all problems seem very simple once they have been resolved. The great victory, which appears so simple today, was the result of a series of victories that went unnoticed.

adapted from the Manual of the Warrior of Light, Paulo Coelho

The Heart of Excellent Service

It's been quite sometime since i was an assistant, n getting involved in the doing of things during events.

I remember when i used to be an assistant, i took on each task with alot of joy.

I remember putting my best effort with fervor in making a difference to the participants, knowing that no matter how small my tasks seem to be, I want and can make a difference to others, even if it means helping out with the logistics at the back of the room.

As I studied in Julz's "School of Excellence" n Eng hao's "School of Impeccability" for my Course Supervisor and Team leader trainings, I learnt alot about discipline and excellency from them.
My best trainings came from them, and I honor both my mentors.

However, I began to realize something is greatly missing in my leadership style recently. Somehow, along the way, I got a bit jaded. More often than not, I took on the leadership positions because I knew I could perform the job well, and also because there weren't many ppl whom were ready enough to take on these leadership positions.

During this The Courage to Create (TCC)'s assisting over the weekend made me realize one thing - Beneath a great leader lies great service.

Coming from an assistant point of view made me see clearer what kind of leader I can be, which is providing the best experience for both participants and the assisting team. I no longer put "getting the job done impeccably or doing my role with excellence" as my focus anymore.

The Goal I set from now on for myself as a leader - To Provide Excellence Service.
And impeccability, integrity, intention, intelligence, invisibility, zen, alacrity and discipline are by-the-way thingy. All actions, tasks and roles, forward us towards providing an excellence service.
Along the way, humility and compassion towards the assistants come in, as I forward the team towards providing an excellence service.

Not forgetting, of 'cos, with this unforgettable (and painful) training from Kelvin last thurs after MCW about never allowing compassion at the expense of the company's resources, I also learnt how to be creative in providing an excellent service without wasting the company's resources.
Hehehe... =P

So, I formally declare the opening of my own school of thought/training/whatever-you-called-it : "The School of Excellent Service".

Enrollment begins today. If you, like me, believe that beneath a great leader lies excellence service, I welcome you to enrol with us today.

The Enrollment criteria are as follows:
1) Commitment to results
2) Dedication to servicing others
3) Sensitive and intuitive to your surroundings (including ppl)
4) Compassion
5) Creative


Course fee: Time, Commitment & Effort

What you will get out of the course:
1) Passion for life
2) Joy
3) The Art of Giving & Receiving love
4) Unforgettable Experience
5) The Science & Art of Excellence Service
6) Creativity
7) fill in yourself


Enrol in the School of Excellence Service Today! ; )

To-do for July

What I would like more of...

1) retail therapy
2) a lazy day tanning at the beach
3) chilling out with friends at pub
4) reading a good book at home (n not b'cos it's a compulsory reading! OMG! we hafta read atlas shrugged!! >_< ) 5) quality rest zzzzzzz 6) more me-time. enjoy nua-ing at home. 7) ktv sessions with my close friends 8) sisters' gathering 9) bitching, moaning and whining, and exchanging juicy scandals with my gal frens. hoho! 10) catching a good movie 11) romantic nights out 12) shopping with family and updating them my life 13) boss utilizing and bringing out my potential in internship. time to remind him i've been slacking for almost a week doing nothing productive =P 14) play bball! i've not played for more than a month. no wonder body feels off 15) massages! been planning to go but still haven't arrange the appt yet! >_<
16) time to register for violin class. heh heh... i'm learning violin soon. Whoopey!
17) late night calls with friends (not coaching calls!)
18) adventures! where's my dose of adventures! =(
19) ... ... ...

gosh!

What I do as a leader...

As a leader...

I serve Humanity,
I serve my world(s),
I live my life powerfully
so I may lead others.
I bow down to love and humility,
and stand tall with integrity and courage.
I am responsible for all cause and effects of my actions,
as I co-exist in my past, present and future at the same time.
I walk in God, as God resides in me.

I am the master of my destiny,
and a servant to the Universe.

My realizations this week

What does it takes to be oneheart?

One Heart
One Soul
One Lady
One Goal.

It takes nothing(ness) to be oneheart.

What does it takes to be a leader?

Inspiration
Humility

What does it takes to be humility?

Intimacy with your people
Start the basics from scratch, all over again
Learn from your peers how they lead the team
Then you know, this is the way they want to be led.
Lead them the way they want to be led.

Took me so long to realize that. >_< well, better late than never.

What does it take to be a coach?

An unbiased logic
Your ability to coach your life
Knowing when to be a friend, when to kick ass, when to give acknowledgement, when to let your coachees shine, when to discipline them, when to push/pull them harder, when not to push/pull them, where to push/pull them, and how much to push/pull.
Compassion
Commitment to results

The Good and Not-So-Good

I'm currently undergoing a 9month intensive leadership training. I took up the program since 04 May. It is exactly 1 month since I first started the leadership journey, and much have changed in my life:

The Good
1) Increased my monthly income/allowance by 200%
2) Improved relationship with my brother
3) Created a mini coaching program for 3 students as a form of self-training, while earning some side income
4) Ability to juggle many many commitments/responsibilities at one go
5) Having more coachees than ever (something that i've always enjoyed doing)
6) Have more Discipline in my life
7) New challenges every single moment
8) Connect better with strangers recently. More open towards them and ready to strike up a conversation anytime. It's something i used to dread.
9) Improving relationships with people around me, especially my current work place.


The Not-So-Good
1) Was down with a persistant cough for the entire month until i manage to schedule time to see the doctor finally.
2) Hardly spend much time with myself. Even when i do, i would be slping soundly. I missed those daily self-contemplation time on my long bus journey
3) Miss those days where I met up with my sisters and close frens every week
4) There's no turning back or quitting. Once you're in for the 9 months training, you're in for good. >_<
5) No time to bitch about things. It's more of a bitch-fast-and-get-over-it-asap kinda thingy.


Last night was my 1st proper lesson for my mini coaching program. Whenever the students got confronted and showed their resistance, it reminded me of my past- those days when i used to fall aslp for almost every lesson, how i used to procrastinate and not submitting my assignment, how i used to have lots of distractions in my life and just wanted to have lots of fun and play. How i used to dislike the word "discipline" and the story goes on...

When i walked out of my student's house, I suddenly felt that i've transformed so much that i couldnt recognize myself. That was me 2 years ago... It's only 2 years... but it felt like a long long time... How time flies...

I feel like catching up with all my close friends n sisters now...............

Recent Updates

Love

More self-love in my life. More love for my brother. More compassion for my dad. I honour myself, and my mum.

I told mum that she's a good mother, and I love her. =)


Relationship

And I realized the person whom needs to grow up is myself, not him. I still haven't accepted him for who he is.

Me to D: I'd like to see more of your weaknesses and those parts of you that you think others may not accept abt you. I'll like to accept you for who you are, instead of who I think you are.


Health

I'm still having that persistant cough for last 2 weeks already. And that body ache. Think my body is trying to tell me something.

Time to hear what it has to say.


Career

I've finally chosen my path. Now the question is- If this can work for me, what can make it work?

I've decided to step up and run the organization like a business, instead of just being a staff and waiting for things to happen.


Finance

What should I do to increase what I have now by 200%, without dropping any of my other commitments? What would Wisdom and Inspiration be like for me this instance?


Internship

Learning lots, and lots to do. Let's Make IT Happen!

My 1st Blog Entry

I finally took the courage to start on new blog here.

Took me such a long time to act on it.

I'm glad I act on it =)

This is my history:

URL: http://fish_1_heart.blogs.friendster.com/oneheart/

I came a long way...