What the f*ck am I doing here?

I can't believe it's almost 3 months since I last had an entry.

A lot of things happened during these 3 months; well, it always does, anyway.

A few noteworthy things that i did lately:

• Graduated from SMU, finally!
• Just joined Dreamworks. I got double promotion on my 1st week of work - 1st promotion was to Executive Consultant. 2nd promotion was to Corporate Trainer.
  
• Brought my M'sian and USA cousins to tour around Singapore last weekend. Think if i switch to tour guide, i could probably excel too =P
• Assisted at "The Door" and "Wave 6 Basic Leadership Program 3rd weekend".
  
• As i worked at Dreamworks over the past 1 week, i bumped into several ppl.; Dianna, Xiao li, Johnny, and that Hisatomo auntie
  

After assisting at the wave 6 3rd weekend, i'm just so present to these questions:

• What the f*ck am I doing here?
• What should I do next?
• What does an extraordinary life mean to me?
• How can I fuse my higher mission/ vision to whatever i am doing now?

Ever since I graduated from my BLP, I feel really lost. Like REALLY LOST!

Kind of like, I've seen and experienced so much extraordinary moments in my life, especially within the last 2 - 3 years, that whatever i am doing now feels so damn ordinary.

It reaches a point where when it comes to my career, anything would do, b'cos they're so ordinary. I guess working at an MNC would look cool, 'cos i get to wear corporate suits and look fantastic. But after a while, it'll be the same starting point again - serving nothing but a function, and trying hard to look impressive. Then what? Isn't that what everyone else has been doing so far?

I was supposed to come up with a team name and tag line for my company. My team name is Greater Heights, and tag line is - "Lead the Way".

The Way refers to the "Dao (4)", or the path. Lead the Way refers to opening up a path of consciousness and guiding them to awakening. In layman's term, it means - "Showing people how their lives had been..... could be..... and should be....."

Honestly speaking... I'm not too sure if i can ever get to the point of integration nor stop feeling lost. I feel almost like drifting along with life.

Hope this feeling will end soon, and may i wake up each day feeling integrated, and living each moment extraordinarily. If not that, then what the f*ck am I doing here?