I'm really tired. And I have to manage a preview in 2 days time.
No, actually i need to manage the preview now.
Things are not going our way. The resistance is growing stronger.
I need to pull myself up in the shortest time possible.
FIM is this weekend. I still need 4 more pax before I hit my target.
I need to pull myself up in the shortest time possible.
*sigh*
There're always things to be done, and battles to fight.
*sigh*
A mysterious voice: (Got time to complain, got time to do work)
>_<
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Q : What are you truly afraid of?
A: I'm afraid of having fears. 'cos it means I have to channel my energy into locating the source of the fears to regain my clarity and resolving the fear itself, instead of spending the energy doing work.
Monday, 30 July 2007
Monday, 23 July 2007
My 1st time
A lot of "new stuffs" in my life last week:
1) Bought new facial products
2) Went for eyebrow embroidery for the 1st time
3) Bought a new t-shirt, which is really cool n chic-looking
4) Gave my bro. a movie treat for the 1st time
5) Clocked OT for the 1st time for my Internship (I finally felt like a true intern! it's like you're never an intern until you worked OT.)
6) Received Harry Potter's latest book on sat (special delivery at 10am!)
7) Went for violin class for the 1st time
8) Tried durian with Nutella for the 1st time
9) Bought a new bag!
10) Annouced to the wave that I'm the new Operations Manager (OM) for preview management.
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Monday blues...
I am so tired... I just wan2 sleep...
zzz
1) Bought new facial products
2) Went for eyebrow embroidery for the 1st time
3) Bought a new t-shirt, which is really cool n chic-looking
4) Gave my bro. a movie treat for the 1st time
5) Clocked OT for the 1st time for my Internship (I finally felt like a true intern! it's like you're never an intern until you worked OT.)
6) Received Harry Potter's latest book on sat (special delivery at 10am!)
7) Went for violin class for the 1st time
8) Tried durian with Nutella for the 1st time
9) Bought a new bag!
10) Annouced to the wave that I'm the new Operations Manager (OM) for preview management.
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Monday blues...
I am so tired... I just wan2 sleep...
zzz
Tuesday, 17 July 2007
Recent Realizations
Recently, I've been through qte a few breakdowns. And these are my recent realizations out of those events.
1) Isn't it amazing that sometimes you were mulling over an issue, and you attracted someone into your life and she said something out of the blue that seems like a solution to your issue? I got one such experience during the weekend energy camp.
2) My bro. finally received and acknowledged my love for him. =)
3) I finally realized why I was so tired lately. Been carrying too much conversation within me and those conversations sapped my energy away. I was not vigilant enough. Get over it.
4) I used to wonder why others have such a high expectations on me. I used to hate that. But now I realized it's b'cos I always demand the best of myself, and they're merely reacting to the vibes I sent out. Morale of the story- There's really nothing to complain about. I ask for it.
5) As a coach, having clarity is very important. During those times when I'm stuck, learn to trust others to either give me listening space to regain my clarity, or trust another coach to coach me out of my issue. And yes, even coaches have times when they got stuck. In those occasions, you need to gain your clarity back. So request for support!
6) Learn to let go. If you're too attached to certain responsibility, you're depriving others the opportunity to learn and grow. Similarly, you're depriving yourself the opportunity to learn a different method from them. It may be true that your method is more effective. But because you allowed yourself to learn from others, you may notice a creative method of doing the same task.
7) By not acknowledging you and taking you for granted, others have embedded their acknowledgments for you. It's b'cos you've done such a great job that others have learnt to take you for granted. The question is- do you have the heart and eyes to receive and recognize an acknowledgement?
8) It is those whom have yet to accept themselves as beautiful that would go, "Really meh?" or , "You sure?" whenever someone gives them a compliment. Have you accepted yourself that you're beautiful and pretty?
9) There's no need to rush or push things. Everything has its own timing. Just be inspiration and your intentions will manifest in your life.
10) There're 2 powerful forces in the world. One is positive and the other is negative. One has the ability to create and the other, to destruct. Let your conversations be those that create and inspire others.
11) What is it like to do things with one heart? No more inner conflicts nor contradicting yourself. No more "I want, but...", or "I dun really know if I want it that badly enough". Life becomes a "You say you want it, and you get it." Yea, be ONEHEART.
12) What is it like to love someone and chat with him with no "conversations racing through your mind" and "expectations"?
The answer is enjoyment.
13) If you want something, open your mouth and ask.
And remember to ask at the right time.
14) Sometimes you wore too many masks that the masks become who you are and you got confused. Always remember- everything's just a role and a game.
Who are you? Who's the default me?
Just recall the feeling when everything seems to align as ONE. No conversations. No expectations. No conflicts. The space where every part of you resonates as ONE.
15) Learn to self-heal. When the body is aching or feeling not in equilibrium, ask this question, "What is my body trying to tell me?" And listen to your heart.
16) 16 is the number of participants whom will be taking 4-6 August 2007, Freedom In Money (FIM). Let's Make It Happen!
17) 17 is the name of my Basic Leadership Program (BLP) wave. Each of us, including the one whom left, has a purpose to fulfill in this BLP. Have you found yours?
18) My performance pattern come in spikes. One moment I am super high, the next moment I'd be down with depression. The question is- How fast can I pick myself up for the next High? What preventive measures can I set for myself during my lows? What support do I need to get back on my feet asap?
19) What can you acknowledge yourself for?
20) The age I took The Courage to Create.
21) What would Inspiration and Wisdom say at this point?
22) Everyone is a reflection of me, and an opportunity for me to accept and honor other parts of myself that I've yet to do so.
1) Isn't it amazing that sometimes you were mulling over an issue, and you attracted someone into your life and she said something out of the blue that seems like a solution to your issue? I got one such experience during the weekend energy camp.
2) My bro. finally received and acknowledged my love for him. =)
3) I finally realized why I was so tired lately. Been carrying too much conversation within me and those conversations sapped my energy away. I was not vigilant enough. Get over it.
4) I used to wonder why others have such a high expectations on me. I used to hate that. But now I realized it's b'cos I always demand the best of myself, and they're merely reacting to the vibes I sent out. Morale of the story- There's really nothing to complain about. I ask for it.
5) As a coach, having clarity is very important. During those times when I'm stuck, learn to trust others to either give me listening space to regain my clarity, or trust another coach to coach me out of my issue. And yes, even coaches have times when they got stuck. In those occasions, you need to gain your clarity back. So request for support!
6) Learn to let go. If you're too attached to certain responsibility, you're depriving others the opportunity to learn and grow. Similarly, you're depriving yourself the opportunity to learn a different method from them. It may be true that your method is more effective. But because you allowed yourself to learn from others, you may notice a creative method of doing the same task.
7) By not acknowledging you and taking you for granted, others have embedded their acknowledgments for you. It's b'cos you've done such a great job that others have learnt to take you for granted. The question is- do you have the heart and eyes to receive and recognize an acknowledgement?
8) It is those whom have yet to accept themselves as beautiful that would go, "Really meh?" or , "You sure?" whenever someone gives them a compliment. Have you accepted yourself that you're beautiful and pretty?
9) There's no need to rush or push things. Everything has its own timing. Just be inspiration and your intentions will manifest in your life.
10) There're 2 powerful forces in the world. One is positive and the other is negative. One has the ability to create and the other, to destruct. Let your conversations be those that create and inspire others.
11) What is it like to do things with one heart? No more inner conflicts nor contradicting yourself. No more "I want, but...", or "I dun really know if I want it that badly enough". Life becomes a "You say you want it, and you get it." Yea, be ONEHEART.
12) What is it like to love someone and chat with him with no "conversations racing through your mind" and "expectations"?
The answer is enjoyment.
13) If you want something, open your mouth and ask.
And remember to ask at the right time.
14) Sometimes you wore too many masks that the masks become who you are and you got confused. Always remember- everything's just a role and a game.
Who are you? Who's the default me?
Just recall the feeling when everything seems to align as ONE. No conversations. No expectations. No conflicts. The space where every part of you resonates as ONE.
15) Learn to self-heal. When the body is aching or feeling not in equilibrium, ask this question, "What is my body trying to tell me?" And listen to your heart.
16) 16 is the number of participants whom will be taking 4-6 August 2007, Freedom In Money (FIM). Let's Make It Happen!
17) 17 is the name of my Basic Leadership Program (BLP) wave. Each of us, including the one whom left, has a purpose to fulfill in this BLP. Have you found yours?
18) My performance pattern come in spikes. One moment I am super high, the next moment I'd be down with depression. The question is- How fast can I pick myself up for the next High? What preventive measures can I set for myself during my lows? What support do I need to get back on my feet asap?
19) What can you acknowledge yourself for?
20) The age I took The Courage to Create.
21) What would Inspiration and Wisdom say at this point?
22) Everyone is a reflection of me, and an opportunity for me to accept and honor other parts of myself that I've yet to do so.
Friday, 6 July 2007
Confessions
Conversations off my mind:
1) i'm so, so in love with you... (singing the song, so in love)
2) Sometimes I doubt if it's worth waiting for you at all 'cos you never gave any commitment of any sort. But i'll still wait anyway, 'cos I want to. =)
3) I want to say I mind alot when you ask your friend along on our date. But I'm too proud to tell you that.
4) I also want to say i actually regard you more than just a friend. But you're also the last person i'll admit to. And I wish you feel the same way about me too. Only difference is that I want to know. =P
5) Stupid ego is talking very loudly.
6) Who is John Galt? I wish i can jumped straight to page 500 of Atlas Shrugged. In fact, make that the last page.
7) I'm looking forward to our wed's date.'
8) I want to achieve OUR GOAL for coming TCC preview next thurs. In fact, make that all previews.
9) The words, "strong", "serious", "hard", "inflexible"... still trigger me alot. Darn.
10) I wish i can get a new desktop. But i'm just so unwilling to pay.
11) I want to have a holiday trip in dec., but i also not willing to spend the money.
12) I'm also not willing to take midnight cabs anymore.
13) I've got alot of work to do now in my internship. I ask for it.
14) I'm proud of working at ECI.
15) Can someone be both sophisticated and cute/innocent-looking at the same time?
16) I want to sleep.
17) It's knock off time. Bye! Hohoho... time to meet dz n dianna at Timber.
1) i'm so, so in love with you... (singing the song, so in love)
2) Sometimes I doubt if it's worth waiting for you at all 'cos you never gave any commitment of any sort. But i'll still wait anyway, 'cos I want to. =)
3) I want to say I mind alot when you ask your friend along on our date. But I'm too proud to tell you that.
4) I also want to say i actually regard you more than just a friend. But you're also the last person i'll admit to. And I wish you feel the same way about me too. Only difference is that I want to know. =P
5) Stupid ego is talking very loudly.
6) Who is John Galt? I wish i can jumped straight to page 500 of Atlas Shrugged. In fact, make that the last page.
7) I'm looking forward to our wed's date.'
8) I want to achieve OUR GOAL for coming TCC preview next thurs. In fact, make that all previews.
9) The words, "strong", "serious", "hard", "inflexible"... still trigger me alot. Darn.
10) I wish i can get a new desktop. But i'm just so unwilling to pay.
11) I want to have a holiday trip in dec., but i also not willing to spend the money.
12) I'm also not willing to take midnight cabs anymore.
13) I've got alot of work to do now in my internship. I ask for it.
14) I'm proud of working at ECI.
15) Can someone be both sophisticated and cute/innocent-looking at the same time?
16) I want to sleep.
17) It's knock off time. Bye! Hohoho... time to meet dz n dianna at Timber.
Sunday, 1 July 2007
My weekend fun
My weekend was fabulous. It's been a while since I've got some fun injected into my life.
Sat
I spent time with family in the morning. Tuition in the afternoon got postponed so I spent my entire afternoon catching up on my slp... woke up to have dinner (that dad & bro bought for me 'cos they could tell how tired I was) and then head back to slp again. OMG! I miss those days when I just sleep whole day and slacking. I mean, when's the last time I actually slacked and felt good slacking?
At night, I head over tanah merah to help Lin and Teng in the packing. We're moving ECI office! Hoorey! Brand new start for the organization expansion!
The 3 ladies caught Transformers at midnight. It was the 1st time I caught a midnight show and I was quite amused to see such a crowd! According to both the ladies, Transformers is a freaking good movie. For me, I love those convertibles.
After that, dave and his fren, Kit, joined us for supper. We chatted through the night b4 heading back office again for further packing till 6am, sun morning.
Sun
Met up with Simin and Eileen at orchard. 'tis the 1st time we hang out and it was fun!!! i bought my violin finally!!! Hoorey, I can finally fulfill my violin dream. The 3 gals shopped a little, crapped alot and we caught Nancy Drew!!! OMG! i love this movie! The guy's so CUTE! and Nancy Drew's pretty too =P I brought the gals to "The Better Toy Place" at Taka, 'cos I knew they'd love it. True enough, we had fun at that place! Nice.
Pity I had to part with them to join my sisters for yan's b'day celebration. I was late (what's new?). When I arrived at Indonesian Riverside Restaurant, a BIG FISH-HEAD with a flower on its lips welcomed my arrival. >_< The things my sisters do. Aiyo...
After dinner, we head over to tcc to chill. There were 5 gals and 2 guys. And the poor guys had to sit through our gals' gossips through the night, deprived of attention, as the gals gossiped about our romantic lives and boys and guys and relationships and match-making and guys and boys and romantic lives and again and again.
Hhahahaha.... I miss such brainless gossiping about guys. Really had so fun last night. Miss my sisters alot. *muacks*
July has been a great start for me. Intend that it ends with a high note too =)
Sat
I spent time with family in the morning. Tuition in the afternoon got postponed so I spent my entire afternoon catching up on my slp... woke up to have dinner (that dad & bro bought for me 'cos they could tell how tired I was) and then head back to slp again. OMG! I miss those days when I just sleep whole day and slacking. I mean, when's the last time I actually slacked and felt good slacking?
At night, I head over tanah merah to help Lin and Teng in the packing. We're moving ECI office! Hoorey! Brand new start for the organization expansion!
The 3 ladies caught Transformers at midnight. It was the 1st time I caught a midnight show and I was quite amused to see such a crowd! According to both the ladies, Transformers is a freaking good movie. For me, I love those convertibles.
After that, dave and his fren, Kit, joined us for supper. We chatted through the night b4 heading back office again for further packing till 6am, sun morning.
Sun
Met up with Simin and Eileen at orchard. 'tis the 1st time we hang out and it was fun!!! i bought my violin finally!!! Hoorey, I can finally fulfill my violin dream. The 3 gals shopped a little, crapped alot and we caught Nancy Drew!!! OMG! i love this movie! The guy's so CUTE! and Nancy Drew's pretty too =P I brought the gals to "The Better Toy Place" at Taka, 'cos I knew they'd love it. True enough, we had fun at that place! Nice.
Pity I had to part with them to join my sisters for yan's b'day celebration. I was late (what's new?). When I arrived at Indonesian Riverside Restaurant, a BIG FISH-HEAD with a flower on its lips welcomed my arrival. >_< The things my sisters do. Aiyo...
After dinner, we head over to tcc to chill. There were 5 gals and 2 guys. And the poor guys had to sit through our gals' gossips through the night, deprived of attention, as the gals gossiped about our romantic lives and boys and guys and relationships and match-making and guys and boys and romantic lives and again and again.
Hhahahaha.... I miss such brainless gossiping about guys. Really had so fun last night. Miss my sisters alot. *muacks*
July has been a great start for me. Intend that it ends with a high note too =)
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