Make it or Breakit

It had been a really confronting and long night for me. It was either a "make it" or "break it" as I tried to answer why I should still hold on.

Qns: Why are you still in this BLP?

Ans:

1. B'cos I've only just began my BLP, instead of wave 5's BLP.

2. To find the magic within me again

3. To leave a magical touch wherever I go, in whatever I do.

4. I've yet to be the leader i strive to be - humble and inspirational.

5. To sustain joy in admist of all the hardship.

6. To serve the world.

7. B'cos I made a conscious choice every single moment.


I acknowledge myself for not giving up the fight. Thank you for willing to give yourself a second chance.


PS: BLP stands for basic leadership program.

The Cub on her rollercoaster ride

It's been a long time since I called myself a cub.

Been a jaguar for too long since early this year. realized i'm most myself as a cub, the fearless and insignificant cub. that's where my true powers lie, acknowledging and accepting my own insignificance and stop trying to be someone BIGGER than who I really am.

Acknowledging my fears, weaknesses and insignificance allows me to free up alot of energy, allows me to accept myself for who i am and am not, allows me to accept others for who they are and see them for what it is, allows me to focus on walking the path of inspiration and humility, be clarity and wisdom, be courage and love.

I love myself most this week.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~LOVE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The Rollercoaster ride this week:

sometimes I am confused
sometimes I am clarity
sometimes I am blur
sometimes I am wisdom
sometimes I am lazy
sometimes I am efficiency
sometimes I am a coachee
sometimes I am the coach
sometimes I am powerless
sometimes I am powerful
sometimes I am tired
sometimes I am energy
sometimes I am my worst enemy
sometimes I am my highest self
sometimes I am procrastination
sometimes I am NOW
sometimes I am limitations
sometimes I am MAKE IT HAPPEN
sometimes I am bitch
sometimes I am GET OVER IT

sometimes I shift gears so fast, I forgot who's the driver.
sometimes I am the driver in control of my gears.

sometimes I am all of these
sometimes I am none at all

but........ always cute. =P

back to chop wood carry water climb hill again.

Reformat.

Advanced level.

Start.

What's cool this week?

1. I cut my hair!

2. I'm gonna make contact lenses. Yes, finally. =P

3. My cool guy asked me out for a movie!

4. I found a formula that allows me to snap myself out of a breakdown cycle faster n more efficiently.

5. My bro's taking Power Memory Coaching Program

6. I tried 2 new things in my wave meetings.

7. Gonna catch up with my close friend this week. Haven't done that like ages.

Really cool! =)

Conversations that I ran my life with lately

It's been a while since I last blogged. Too many things happened. Life's been really fast-paced. Here's some of the conversations that I've run my life with lately:

1) Who should I be? Which me should I be?

2) It's time for system upgrade.

3) I want to destroy my life. Please let me kill myself (ego).

4) The only master I serve is myself.

5) And I serve the world.

6) Yixin the leader is an elitist. Yixin the coach is compassionate. Why do I always draw the line so clearly? Hmph...

7) What're my strengths and weaknesses as a leader?

8) How can I be more graceful in my delivery?

9) How can I be more empowering than overpowering as a leader?

10) How can I grow as a leader?

11) How can I score more reality points?

12) How can I sustain my joy despite all the breakdowns?

13) How can I increase standards? How should I devise the training guide? How should I champion the growth of others in the manner they can learn best in?

14) How can I add value to others?

15) What support do the rest need most at this point?

16) How can I catch myself faster each time I got unconscious and overwhelmed by responsibilities?

17) How can I stop bearing the world's burden on my shoulders?

18) How can I meet up to my dad's expectations? How can I make him happier? How to improve our relationship like my mum's and bro's?

19) How can I be more attractive? How can I attract the people/things I want very easily?

20) How to tell ppl. to stop looking up to me and start believing more in their powers?

21) Why do I always reject that I am powerful? How can I accept my power?

22) How to be soft and powerful and graceful and attractive all at once? Hmph...

23) Why am I always asking so many questions?

24) How can I be a rainmaker?

25) How can I sustain the moment when I'm align as ONE with myself and the Universe always?

26) How can I win myself?

27) How can I sustain unconditional love and acceptance all the time?

28) How can I fork out more time to catch up with my sisters and close frens?

29) Why can't I just be small and weak? Why do ppl. always expect me to be powerful or push me in a position where I have to be powerful?

30) How may I exceed targets all the time?

31) How can I get all the answers to my questions?



Yup, my life is FOS at the moment. Realized that my old system really doesn't serve me well. And there's a part of me that wants to destroy my life (system)when all the vulnerabilities of my OS have been exposed. Ouch!

It's time for system upgrade. My tagline used to be "Make it Happen!"

Now, my tagline is, "Get over it." =)