Events in October:
1) Attended Basic leadership program (BLP) 2nd weekend camp on 1st week of oct (3 full days).
2) 2nd week of oct I took up Course Supervisor role for The Courage to Create (TCC) program (3 full days, excluding logistic setup, creation meeting for assisting team and training for Team leader)
3) 3rd week of Oct I assisted in an advance program called, Principles of Seduction, for 4 days.
4) I took up 2 coachees for this cycle of Making Courage Work (MCW) program.
5) Tutee's taking her O'level. This month i've been focusing in her revision.
My space lately:
1) Very worn out and stretched. though i'm still progressing, my actions were sluggish
2) Been extremely "off" lately; was in my super BLUR mode and a handful of hiccups. That happened when I lacked slp =(
3) Psychologically more stable and stronger. I've finally picked myself up and committed to running faster and more efficiently in the 4 projects than the 1st 4 1/2 months in BLP. I want growth and expansion in performance, effectiveness and results for the 4 projects. For project 2 and 3, which is relationships and finance/work/studies, I intend for a total of at least 300% increase in growth.
4) Became very aware of my blind-spots and areas in my life that I need to hone. sigh, suddenly realized I've got so many things I need to work on. Esp to overcome my complacency and laziness. This quote is very apt, "When complacency breeds, danger multiples".
5) What I got out of TCC assisting as a Course Supervisor is - "Walk the Talk". As a leader/ coach, if you cannot walk the talk and pull off results in your life, there's no way you can inspire and create magic in your coachees' lives.
6) What I got out of POS as an assistant is to locate the source of all my issues for the last 4 1/2 months, and about "owning the space". When you own the space, you step into the room feeling stronger sense of ownership and power.
October's coming to an end! Hoorey! =) Looking forward to November where more Exciting events await me -
1) Farewell party (gonna meet new ppl!)
2) Visions and Clarity (a processing that improves short-sightedness)
3) BLP wave 6 (I can start recruiting the next batch of leaders)
4) Enterprise Operatives (where I learn how to operate in enterprises)
5) A visit to salon!
6) Preview leader mock trainings (wan2 be trained to lead previews and programs)
7) Quality rest (I need this!)
All in due time! =)
Sunday, 28 October 2007
Monday, 24 September 2007
Make it or Breakit
It had been a really confronting and long night for me. It was either a "make it" or "break it" as I tried to answer why I should still hold on.
Qns: Why are you still in this BLP?
Ans:
1. B'cos I've only just began my BLP, instead of wave 5's BLP.
2. To find the magic within me again
3. To leave a magical touch wherever I go, in whatever I do.
4. I've yet to be the leader i strive to be - humble and inspirational.
5. To sustain joy in admist of all the hardship.
6. To serve the world.
7. B'cos I made a conscious choice every single moment.
I acknowledge myself for not giving up the fight. Thank you for willing to give yourself a second chance.
PS: BLP stands for basic leadership program.
Qns: Why are you still in this BLP?
Ans:
1. B'cos I've only just began my BLP, instead of wave 5's BLP.
2. To find the magic within me again
3. To leave a magical touch wherever I go, in whatever I do.
4. I've yet to be the leader i strive to be - humble and inspirational.
5. To sustain joy in admist of all the hardship.
6. To serve the world.
7. B'cos I made a conscious choice every single moment.
I acknowledge myself for not giving up the fight. Thank you for willing to give yourself a second chance.
PS: BLP stands for basic leadership program.
Wednesday, 19 September 2007
The Cub on her rollercoaster ride
It's been a long time since I called myself a cub.
Been a jaguar for too long since early this year. realized i'm most myself as a cub, the fearless and insignificant cub. that's where my true powers lie, acknowledging and accepting my own insignificance and stop trying to be someone BIGGER than who I really am.
Acknowledging my fears, weaknesses and insignificance allows me to free up alot of energy, allows me to accept myself for who i am and am not, allows me to accept others for who they are and see them for what it is, allows me to focus on walking the path of inspiration and humility, be clarity and wisdom, be courage and love.
I love myself most this week.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~LOVE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The Rollercoaster ride this week:
sometimes I am confused
sometimes I am clarity
sometimes I am blur
sometimes I am wisdom
sometimes I am lazy
sometimes I am efficiency
sometimes I am a coachee
sometimes I am the coach
sometimes I am powerless
sometimes I am powerful
sometimes I am tired
sometimes I am energy
sometimes I am my worst enemy
sometimes I am my highest self
sometimes I am procrastination
sometimes I am NOW
sometimes I am limitations
sometimes I am MAKE IT HAPPEN
sometimes I am bitch
sometimes I am GET OVER IT
sometimes I shift gears so fast, I forgot who's the driver.
sometimes I am the driver in control of my gears.
sometimes I am all of these
sometimes I am none at all
but........ always cute. =P
back to chop wood carry water climb hill again.
Reformat.
Advanced level.
Start.
Been a jaguar for too long since early this year. realized i'm most myself as a cub, the fearless and insignificant cub. that's where my true powers lie, acknowledging and accepting my own insignificance and stop trying to be someone BIGGER than who I really am.
Acknowledging my fears, weaknesses and insignificance allows me to free up alot of energy, allows me to accept myself for who i am and am not, allows me to accept others for who they are and see them for what it is, allows me to focus on walking the path of inspiration and humility, be clarity and wisdom, be courage and love.
I love myself most this week.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~LOVE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The Rollercoaster ride this week:
sometimes I am confused
sometimes I am clarity
sometimes I am blur
sometimes I am wisdom
sometimes I am lazy
sometimes I am efficiency
sometimes I am a coachee
sometimes I am the coach
sometimes I am powerless
sometimes I am powerful
sometimes I am tired
sometimes I am energy
sometimes I am my worst enemy
sometimes I am my highest self
sometimes I am procrastination
sometimes I am NOW
sometimes I am limitations
sometimes I am MAKE IT HAPPEN
sometimes I am bitch
sometimes I am GET OVER IT
sometimes I shift gears so fast, I forgot who's the driver.
sometimes I am the driver in control of my gears.
sometimes I am all of these
sometimes I am none at all
but........ always cute. =P
back to chop wood carry water climb hill again.
Reformat.
Advanced level.
Start.
Tuesday, 11 September 2007
What's cool this week?
1. I cut my hair!
2. I'm gonna make contact lenses. Yes, finally. =P
3. My cool guy asked me out for a movie!
4. I found a formula that allows me to snap myself out of a breakdown cycle faster n more efficiently.
5. My bro's taking Power Memory Coaching Program
6. I tried 2 new things in my wave meetings.
7. Gonna catch up with my close friend this week. Haven't done that like ages.
Really cool! =)
2. I'm gonna make contact lenses. Yes, finally. =P
3. My cool guy asked me out for a movie!
4. I found a formula that allows me to snap myself out of a breakdown cycle faster n more efficiently.
5. My bro's taking Power Memory Coaching Program
6. I tried 2 new things in my wave meetings.
7. Gonna catch up with my close friend this week. Haven't done that like ages.
Really cool! =)
Sunday, 2 September 2007
Conversations that I ran my life with lately
It's been a while since I last blogged. Too many things happened. Life's been really fast-paced. Here's some of the conversations that I've run my life with lately:
1) Who should I be? Which me should I be?
2) It's time for system upgrade.
3) I want to destroy my life. Please let me kill myself (ego).
4) The only master I serve is myself.
5) And I serve the world.
6) Yixin the leader is an elitist. Yixin the coach is compassionate. Why do I always draw the line so clearly? Hmph...
7) What're my strengths and weaknesses as a leader?
8) How can I be more graceful in my delivery?
9) How can I be more empowering than overpowering as a leader?
10) How can I grow as a leader?
11) How can I score more reality points?
12) How can I sustain my joy despite all the breakdowns?
13) How can I increase standards? How should I devise the training guide? How should I champion the growth of others in the manner they can learn best in?
14) How can I add value to others?
15) What support do the rest need most at this point?
16) How can I catch myself faster each time I got unconscious and overwhelmed by responsibilities?
17) How can I stop bearing the world's burden on my shoulders?
18) How can I meet up to my dad's expectations? How can I make him happier? How to improve our relationship like my mum's and bro's?
19) How can I be more attractive? How can I attract the people/things I want very easily?
20) How to tell ppl. to stop looking up to me and start believing more in their powers?
21) Why do I always reject that I am powerful? How can I accept my power?
22) How to be soft and powerful and graceful and attractive all at once? Hmph...
23) Why am I always asking so many questions?
24) How can I be a rainmaker?
25) How can I sustain the moment when I'm align as ONE with myself and the Universe always?
26) How can I win myself?
27) How can I sustain unconditional love and acceptance all the time?
28) How can I fork out more time to catch up with my sisters and close frens?
29) Why can't I just be small and weak? Why do ppl. always expect me to be powerful or push me in a position where I have to be powerful?
30) How may I exceed targets all the time?
31) How can I get all the answers to my questions?
Yup, my life is FOS at the moment. Realized that my old system really doesn't serve me well. And there's a part of me that wants to destroy my life (system)when all the vulnerabilities of my OS have been exposed. Ouch!
It's time for system upgrade. My tagline used to be "Make it Happen!"
Now, my tagline is, "Get over it." =)
1) Who should I be? Which me should I be?
2) It's time for system upgrade.
3) I want to destroy my life. Please let me kill myself (ego).
4) The only master I serve is myself.
5) And I serve the world.
6) Yixin the leader is an elitist. Yixin the coach is compassionate. Why do I always draw the line so clearly? Hmph...
7) What're my strengths and weaknesses as a leader?
8) How can I be more graceful in my delivery?
9) How can I be more empowering than overpowering as a leader?
10) How can I grow as a leader?
11) How can I score more reality points?
12) How can I sustain my joy despite all the breakdowns?
13) How can I increase standards? How should I devise the training guide? How should I champion the growth of others in the manner they can learn best in?
14) How can I add value to others?
15) What support do the rest need most at this point?
16) How can I catch myself faster each time I got unconscious and overwhelmed by responsibilities?
17) How can I stop bearing the world's burden on my shoulders?
18) How can I meet up to my dad's expectations? How can I make him happier? How to improve our relationship like my mum's and bro's?
19) How can I be more attractive? How can I attract the people/things I want very easily?
20) How to tell ppl. to stop looking up to me and start believing more in their powers?
21) Why do I always reject that I am powerful? How can I accept my power?
22) How to be soft and powerful and graceful and attractive all at once? Hmph...
23) Why am I always asking so many questions?
24) How can I be a rainmaker?
25) How can I sustain the moment when I'm align as ONE with myself and the Universe always?
26) How can I win myself?
27) How can I sustain unconditional love and acceptance all the time?
28) How can I fork out more time to catch up with my sisters and close frens?
29) Why can't I just be small and weak? Why do ppl. always expect me to be powerful or push me in a position where I have to be powerful?
30) How may I exceed targets all the time?
31) How can I get all the answers to my questions?
Yup, my life is FOS at the moment. Realized that my old system really doesn't serve me well. And there's a part of me that wants to destroy my life (system)when all the vulnerabilities of my OS have been exposed. Ouch!
It's time for system upgrade. My tagline used to be "Make it Happen!"
Now, my tagline is, "Get over it." =)
Sunday, 12 August 2007
A reminder
This blog entry is to remind myself...
that i love my father.
that my father loves me too.
that everything i learnt out there is to better our relationship.
that today is the day i apply what i have learnt.
no matter what happens, be fully responsible for my actions and their consequences.
that i love my father.
that my father loves me too.
that everything i learnt out there is to better our relationship.
that today is the day i apply what i have learnt.
no matter what happens, be fully responsible for my actions and their consequences.
Wednesday, 1 August 2007
Survey
Found this on my er mei's blog. It's been a long time since i did one, so here goes:
1) Have you had your birthday yet?
Not yet for this year. It's end of the year. ; )
2) Are you still the same person as you last year?
Yes and no. Yes as in i'm still as petitie as last year, only cuter this year. *so not shy* =P
3) Are you still in the same job?
Of 'cos! Though for my internship, it's coming to an end this friday.
4) Is your favourite colour the same colour?
I dun have a fave colour, my philosophy for colours is that it depends on the objects n my mood. Though my bro. will claim otherwise. He thinks that I always pick red and black, color of ECI. >_< 5) Have you got the same style/colour hair?
Nope! I've got a new hair cut on mon, and dye-ing my hair soon! Hohoho!
6) Have you brought a new car this year?
Nope! I wan2 be driven around. Heh =P
7) How many Ex girlfriends/boyfriends have you had this year?
2. No ex-gfs yet.
8) Have you been involved with the police this year?
Yup, got chased out of The Tanamera. Sigh... need to find an office space asap.
9) All time drinking place for 2007?
It's the company that matters. I'd go for pubs along clarke quay/ boat quay.
10) Is your best friend still your bestfriend?
Yes. But I forgot to tell her she still is. Shall make a point to remind her on her b'day.
11) Got any tattoos or piercings this year?
Nope, but i did eyebrow embroidery! I'm super proud of myself for the courage, 'cos I did mine without researching wad the heck is eyebrow embroidery nor knew whether it'll turn out nice.
Keeping your intention strong that you're gonna have beautiful eyebrow helps. What you intend will manifest in your reality ; )
12) Had a hair cut?
Yea yea... i told my hair stylish to give me a different style this time. I was hoping for smt. more punk/funky/fun/stylish BUT I said I'll leave it to him to style. Turns out to be still so demure-looking. >_<
13) Waxed any part of your body this year?
Haven't tried yet. Would be great to try it sometime soon. Must find kakis so we can scream together! Hahaha... *so evil* =P
14) Been in hospital this year?
Nope!
15) Lost someone you cared about this year?
Yup, lost a friendship. Sigh... wish he'll understand my intentions and amend our friendship when he's straightened his thoughts. =(
16) Been on a holiday this year?
Not yet!!! Though i've been on holiday mood several times this year. I wan2 go on a trip soon, in dec! Wan2 join me? Hee~
17) Been in love this year?
What is love? Alrighty, to ans it in a non-philosophical manner...
The ans is yes and no. It depends on the context. Alright, I get it, i'm still being philosophical... =P
18) Been kicked out of a Club this year?
Thankfully no.
19) Read a book this year?
You got to be kidding, of 'cos! Since 2 months ago, I've read Ender's game, The Manual of the Warrior of Light, Atlas Shrugged and Harry Potter latest book!
Harry Potter's the BEST! You gotta READ it man! The BEST of J.K.Rowling series, says me.
20) Worst thing happened this year?
Overwhelmed with too much work. Breakdowns are getting pretty normal these days... =(
21) Best thing that happened this year?
Alot leh... lemme count the blessings...
(a) Ah ming, Brother, and myself taking TCC together.
(b) Brother acknowledging my love for him
(c) Breakthroughs in my performance
(d) Taking BLP with a bunch of great ppl.
(e) Me finally fulfilling my violin dream
(f) Having more money to spend
(g) Realizations I have had so far, esp. the leadership conversation of being humble n inspirational
(h) Having a clear sense of direction for my career, n making a commitment to myself
(i) Trying out alot of things for the 1st time, and learning lots from others
(j) ... ... ...
22) Best thing to happen this year?
Too much to list here. I've created a wish list already. Just to summarize all in one word -
LOVE.
1) Have you had your birthday yet?
Not yet for this year. It's end of the year. ; )
2) Are you still the same person as you last year?
Yes and no. Yes as in i'm still as petitie as last year, only cuter this year. *so not shy* =P
3) Are you still in the same job?
Of 'cos! Though for my internship, it's coming to an end this friday.
4) Is your favourite colour the same colour?
I dun have a fave colour, my philosophy for colours is that it depends on the objects n my mood. Though my bro. will claim otherwise. He thinks that I always pick red and black, color of ECI. >_< 5) Have you got the same style/colour hair?
Nope! I've got a new hair cut on mon, and dye-ing my hair soon! Hohoho!
6) Have you brought a new car this year?
Nope! I wan2 be driven around. Heh =P
7) How many Ex girlfriends/boyfriends have you had this year?
2. No ex-gfs yet.
8) Have you been involved with the police this year?
Yup, got chased out of The Tanamera. Sigh... need to find an office space asap.
9) All time drinking place for 2007?
It's the company that matters. I'd go for pubs along clarke quay/ boat quay.
10) Is your best friend still your bestfriend?
Yes. But I forgot to tell her she still is. Shall make a point to remind her on her b'day.
11) Got any tattoos or piercings this year?
Nope, but i did eyebrow embroidery! I'm super proud of myself for the courage, 'cos I did mine without researching wad the heck is eyebrow embroidery nor knew whether it'll turn out nice.
Keeping your intention strong that you're gonna have beautiful eyebrow helps. What you intend will manifest in your reality ; )
12) Had a hair cut?
Yea yea... i told my hair stylish to give me a different style this time. I was hoping for smt. more punk/funky/fun/stylish BUT I said I'll leave it to him to style. Turns out to be still so demure-looking. >_<
13) Waxed any part of your body this year?
Haven't tried yet. Would be great to try it sometime soon. Must find kakis so we can scream together! Hahaha... *so evil* =P
14) Been in hospital this year?
Nope!
15) Lost someone you cared about this year?
Yup, lost a friendship. Sigh... wish he'll understand my intentions and amend our friendship when he's straightened his thoughts. =(
16) Been on a holiday this year?
Not yet!!! Though i've been on holiday mood several times this year. I wan2 go on a trip soon, in dec! Wan2 join me? Hee~
17) Been in love this year?
What is love? Alrighty, to ans it in a non-philosophical manner...
The ans is yes and no. It depends on the context. Alright, I get it, i'm still being philosophical... =P
18) Been kicked out of a Club this year?
Thankfully no.
19) Read a book this year?
You got to be kidding, of 'cos! Since 2 months ago, I've read Ender's game, The Manual of the Warrior of Light, Atlas Shrugged and Harry Potter latest book!
Harry Potter's the BEST! You gotta READ it man! The BEST of J.K.Rowling series, says me.
20) Worst thing happened this year?
Overwhelmed with too much work. Breakdowns are getting pretty normal these days... =(
21) Best thing that happened this year?
Alot leh... lemme count the blessings...
(a) Ah ming, Brother, and myself taking TCC together.
(b) Brother acknowledging my love for him
(c) Breakthroughs in my performance
(d) Taking BLP with a bunch of great ppl.
(e) Me finally fulfilling my violin dream
(f) Having more money to spend
(g) Realizations I have had so far, esp. the leadership conversation of being humble n inspirational
(h) Having a clear sense of direction for my career, n making a commitment to myself
(i) Trying out alot of things for the 1st time, and learning lots from others
(j) ... ... ...
22) Best thing to happen this year?
Too much to list here. I've created a wish list already. Just to summarize all in one word -
LOVE.
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