Games I give up

Today is PCTP 1 1st day.

Got another tick off by him again, and got chased out of the room.

I'm sick and tired of:
- my indifference
- giving my powers away to ppl.
- not having a stand for myself
- not even trying to explain myself
- attracting scoldings all the time
- saying the wrong things at the wrong time to the wrong person at the wrong place
- me telling myself to just accept the other person's comments
- playing the "being nice" game
- playing "miss diplomacy" game
- playing "stupid" game
- feeling so much unrealized potential
- getting f*ck all the time
- having lack of slp
- not having the drive to work on resource conversation
- not wanting to do anything
- my inconsistency
- giving up the fight
- wanting to make my mentors look good, therefore i dun bother to contradict them
- me not being highest self


I feel like having a gd rest.

After the gd rest, I shall fight.

To all these parts of me that sabotage me again and again from being a warrior of light,

I'm really sick and tired of all of you. You dun serve me at all.


You will die again to my highest self with wisdom.


New games to play:
- enough rest
- consistency
- corporate deals
- rainmaker
- smart
- being at the right place at the right time saying the right things to the right ppl
- standing up for myself
- accepting and honoring my powers and that i'm powerful
- warrior of light ==> fight lah!